*If you are reading this then it must mean I have chosen to convey the promiscuous way out of this scummy living, As you can gauge by this note I have chosen suicide as the only option to a life I never chose to live, I hope that the one who reads this eminence can fully read that I was never felicitous when i walked the earth, Was never well-chosen ventilation, Was never happy living a life I did n't want, I would rather die and hold someone new a hazard to hold up, Anyways as I can probably guess you are all wondering why I did it other than the obvious fact I never wanted to dwell, wellspring it all began a short while ago when I met a sure lady friend who for all intensive purpose shall remain nameless for the time beign, She was hired man on heart honest to god my perfect match, No soul alive or dead could ever possibly oppose up to her in any aspect, Although to some citizenry she was never considered the most beautiful to me every fourth dimension I stole a single glance I saw an angel staring back, Every news she spoke managed to will my heart beating a lilliputian firm each and every time, Every clip we managed to have a conversation I will honestly admit that she left me speechless, Everytime we spoke I could never form a arrant Book, Everything I ever managed to say came out as a stutter and made little to no sensation, I guess i have gone a little off rails but still I hope you understand one of the reasons I chose death over the life I once lived, That girl who shall still remain nameless was one of the few cause I saw demise as the best alternative, The other reasons are as follows, I was alone, Ever since I lost the nameless girl I have spent my liveliness alone, Nobody knows me, Nobody has ever once cared that I really do need supporter, Nobody has ever once cared that I walk the streets alone in hopes that maybe someone would see the broken chassis hidden behind the mask of tears, cypher has ever once had the decency to just block and ask why I look so sad, So yeah there are two reasons, A girl who left me broken, Who left me depressed and for all it 's worth the second reason will always fend that I 'm alone and the cosmos never seems to handle, hypothesis the next cause could be classed as boredom, Yeah such a simple matter that in my sprightliness has become something so John R. Major, In to the highest degree mass 's liveliness when they are bored they just pick up a book, A game, Watch the television or go hang out with their ally, With me been bored leads to things much more dangerous, The knife is always my favourite past tense time, See how longsighted it takes for the pain to become too lots to bear, See how much blood seaps out the cuts I leave on my blazon, See how many piazza I can leave a scratch without them been noticed, Yeah such fun multiplication, Of track alchol was always fun aswell, Getting drunk was always a enceinte past clip, So yeah that 's another reason for this note, I was bored, So bored of spirit, So bored of been alone, So bored of having to live the life-time nearly multitude are content with, Okay I guess the final intellect would have to be that I was tired, I was so well-worn of living the same day over and over, Yes days passed but to me each and every ace day seemed the same, I was in a rut, I did the Lapp thing day in day out for even I ca n't remember how many yr, My animation became such a repetition that I became more and more tired with each day that passed, So I guess there the ground for why I chose to occupy my aliveness, A girl, Being so alone, Boredom and of row being tired, I know they do n't sound like much of a rationality but I want whoever may read this note to empathize that them four minor reasonableness combined became one big reason, being depressed and alone while also being very wear out and extremely bored, Such a bad combination, Anyways I guess the whole point of this note is to say goodbye and to let you all know the reason I left this life story, So goodbye and goodluck to all, I wish my family all the practiced and hope they can forgive my pick, Hope they can sympathize that I wanted this more than anything, Hope they understand that even in dying I will still love them till the end of time itself, I also hope that the unknown girl can understand that if she ever reads this I just want her to screw that I do handle deeply about her, I do still love her and I doubt that love life will ever fleet, Even if my sum has no beat I will still feel a heartbeat everytime I think of her, Hope she can retrieve the good meter we shared and call back that I never blame her for breaking me, Want her to recollect that in the end all 's I wanted was for her to be happy even if that meant I could never be, okeh now I know this has gotten a little long so I will finish as quickly as I possibly can, I hope you all carry on with life as if I never existed, Just let me go and forget about me as so many people already have, Goodbye I do make love you all ( anyone who reads that, those lastly assembly line are meant for family only ), Guess I can finally be at peace, Goodnight world.
( P.S, You shall find my body in the place I always seeked when I felt most alone aka the Classical Greek where all our memories are stored ) *